Idk why but :)

I am ridiculously tired, but idk, I just can't help myself. I HAVE TO WRITE ABOUT IT! :) I have been single for about 2ish years. I've talked to some guys in between then, but nothing to serious. 2 years being single has made me a little lonely, and I realized that while I have friends who are back and forth happy and upset in their relationships, I have some friends that are truly happy in their relationships. When I see them I just smile, wish them a life time of happiness and hope that I can be that way soon. I realized that for me to get that, I just need a friend first. Someone I can be myself around, who will respect me, my thoughts and dreams, someone who is honest, has a sense of humor, truthful, sweet and good natured, and someone who I can just call up and be like "hey do you wanna go do something right now" and not have it be sexual. We could just genuinely enjoy each other's company and laugh :) I realized that when you just tell someone you like them and don't take the time to get to know them, things are rushed, feelings developed, feelings are hurt and relationships don't last...usually. However, I think I finally found someone who fits what I want :) YAY! I've been around this guy for awhile, but just recently started talking to him. It started off with silly jokes about work, then eventually we talked about going out dancing and just enjoying ourselves, nothing was set in stone though. Eventually I asked him for his #, we didn't text immediately, but I still had his number. Then a few weeks ago, I just didn't see him, he saw me a week ago and was like "OMG WHERE HAVE U BEEN?!" After having something short of a reunion, we started texting, then before I knew it, we were texting throughout the night, talking on the phone for awhile, and having meaningful conversations. Through taking to him, I began to like him. I mean don't get me wrong, the kid is real good looking. and omg I LOVE HIS SMILE! it's so adorable! He has a man's body, I can tell, he has the kind of body that you know can protect and is strong, but at the same time, loving. His voice is deep but its pleasing to my ear. There's just so many little things about him that make this greater picture and I just ADORE IT! :) He's a little younger than me, which right from the start, I thought would take away any chances of me liking him in such a way. But! He has a plan, he has ideas, he's outgoing, he knows how he wants to get where he wants to be and I admire that so much in him, especially for his age...which is only a few years younger than me.

I guess I have a little crush on him and I'm just overly happy with everything about him and about us :) He's such a sweetheart and so funny. Aye I can't just let this go. It's been awhile since I've felt this way about anybody and idk I guess I have a belly full of butterflies. When I think of him, every cutesy love song I know of plays in my mind, which is funny, because I'm not in love with him, and I don't think I love him....I'M JUST SOOO EXCITED THAT I HAVE THE FRIEND THAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED WHO HAS THE POTENTIAL TO BE SOMETHING AMAZING WITH ME! :) I honestly don't know where I'll be a month from now, or what our relationship will be by then, BUT I HOPE ITS SOMETHING GOOD! :) So to reflect how I feel, here's a song :)