I believe when you see me, you see my weight, but you don't see it. Like you know I'm a big girl, but there's just so much to me as a person that you don't see it. And while I love my family and friends who to this day (lol) insist I am not fat. Thank you guys, lol you guys def help me keep my head up. I love their support and belief in the things I do, my aspirations, my goals and me as a person, but I think an other kind of support now.
I don't go shopping for clothes often, for many reasons that aren't related to my weight at all. But when I do, it's like I miss the world memo of when to buy clothes that day, because when I go, EVERYTHING IN MY SIZE IS GONE! WTF?! There must be more fattys out there, at least more than I realize. So by the end of my shopping experience, I am normally feeling frustrated, upset, mad, like I want to cry, but most importantly I WANT TO CHANGE!
I am tired of working out and sticking to it and because of so many other things, I have to stop and focus on other things. Its a little sad because the people that love me know that food is def 1 of the keys to my soul, you cook for me I'm in love, but poor eating habits and not eating the right things are taking a toll.
I hoped that if I read some "fat girl" books, I'd feel inspired to lose weight. If I thought about my high blood pressure and possible future health complications, then I'd be more motivated to lose weight. And I do, but that's short lived due to my crazy life. I need this change to be permanent! I need a strong support system for this, I need your help to help me get there.
So as I take my last bite of a greasy, melt in your mouth artery clogging goodness along with the last of the amazingly salty high blood pressure booster fries, I am vowing to do the best I can to lose some and live a healthier lifestyle
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