Fire + Rain = Steam

It's been awhile since I've written a poem, but here it is

Fire + Rain = Steam


Setting fire to the rain
Because I can’t take the pain
The pain that engulfs my heart
It’s the pain I feel when we’re apart
I know I know I shouldn’t let it show
I realize I realize that the tears will weld up in my eyes
But I cant help myself in this moment of heart ache
Because I can feel the heartbeat of destiny in our fate
It has your eyes, your lips, and your smile
It has your warm touch that lingers for awhile
It has your voice that echos sweetly in my memory
Please don’t let my attempts to love you fail in vain
Please don’t leave me standing in violet rain
I know when something is right for me
And right now that right is you
But the closest I get to you is always at least one word away
Always an and…
So I set fire to the rain because I just can’t take the pain
Exhausting my mind beyond it limits, while I exhaust my energy to nothingness
O sweet ignorance….how beautiful is this
I loved you because never once in my thousand in one nights of dreams did I dream of you
You came from a path traveled from a far when I thought love was thru
Suddenly I felt myself in quick and lofty flight as we talked through the night
And how beautiful you seemed way up there far from my always idiot heart
Like a lost bird, I let you rest in my precious part
Only to realize you would fly off again right after dawn
Damn loving love songs
I hoped you’d be not like the romantic one, who in love set me on fire
But I guess everything in life can expire
So I set fire to the rain because a bleeding heart is an unwashable stain.

Letter 2 to Frankie

Hey Frankie! How are you? I hope you are doing well and smiling. I just got in from hanging out with Victor and a cousin, who I already forgot her name....but she was such a sweet heart! I don't know if you know, but I simply love your family! They are so loving, sweet, kind and full of life :) It's amazing! I wish I spent more time with them, but it's hard when school and work keep you so busy...I guess I'm living too fast huh? :P I promise though, that I stop to smell the roses and appreciate them. As for Victor, he came back home and is going to school in Oakton. He and Nikki are still together and doing just fine. I'm happy for them, I love Victor and I love her...I really hope they last. I had a really long talk with Victor about you and about my brother. You know it's funny, sometimes words just don't fully embody our feelings and sometimes when it does, it just seems sooo surreal. Sometimes, I feel like I've known you forever and that I just seen your smile the other day. That feeling comes to me soo...whats the word? welcomingly familiar because of the way your friends and family talk about you. You are an amazing man, sooo inspiring, soo funny ( yes I know about the microwave lol), so smart and knowledgeable, so handsome, polite and thoughtful. I really wish we had talked and I got to know you, but we are talking now right? That's what matters. I just wanted to say hi, and wish you well and remind you of how amazing you are. Going to bed now, night :)

ps. If you could please watch over N.T.N and help to keep him on track, I would appreciate it so much! :) And I know he would too. Thanks!

Mad, Mad, Mad World

Before I go to bed, I just felt like I needed to blog this. Since the incarceration of someone really dear to me, I've noticed there a lot of trouble youths out there. Every day it seems that everyday, there is a youth being arrested and sentenced. Our county jails and prisons are becoming overpopulated with incarcerated youths. Now, I'm not saying that everyone in jail or prison deserves whatever they are dealing with, nor am I taking any sides. The last 8 months of my life have shown me that there are many sides to a story and it's normally not just 1 individual's fault.
Any who, I saw an article that featured a high school friend who stopped a robbery at a train station.

Ahhhh, Good ol' New Year

Happy New Year Blog! :) I was very tempted to vent out my recent frustrations on you the other day, but so many of my blogs have been dedicated to it, that I decided not to, and to just work it off. Which at first was a little hard to do with all the emotions I was feeling, but music has always and will always make me feel better. Any who, today is better and I'm excited for the new year. 2011 was a mix of ups and downs, goods and bads. I can honestly say that the goods I experienced where a direct result of my hard work, dedication and determination. :) So yay me! :) But I've noticed even years ( 06,08,10, and now 12) have all been good years to me, soooo I'm hoping that it keeps this trend lol It's funny because I just ate a fortune cookie a few hours ago, and normally I get all this coocky messages that I never understand, and then I start wondering what was this Chinese man on when he wrote this and stuffed it into a cookie?! lol Anyways thats besides the point. I opened the cookie, ate half and opened up the little message. Of course I was expecting some random Kung-Fu Panda message that only Master Shifu would understand, but my cookie actually