I only have 45 mins to write this out, and I'm going to try my best to. This semester has been a very trying one. There have been some good things and some bad things. At this point, with the semester coming close to an end, there's been a lot stressing me out, which has definitely affected my health. And today, I had a break down, I just couldn't help it. I felt the tears weld up in my eyes and I could feel the sickness of stress building up in my throat and tum belling in my stomach. At the time, I couldn't really think of who I could talk to that would help me calm down or tell me what to do. I ended up calling a friend who went through something similar and a very good friend that I've known for years who has always been there to make me smile. Both of them pretty much said that I was my biggest enemy, and it was all in my head. That the things I was worried about ( which at this point is music) was nothing to be worried about, that God wouldn't give me anything that I couldn't handle. And at the end of the day, if any one could do it, it would be me and I was not alone in this...I have the unconditional love of all my friends and family as well as their faith and support. They made me realize that I am capable of doing anything I want to and that I was born to perform, to sing, to be on stage. That alone is so comforting. I think as a young woman being an adult, I've felt that I should keep things in, good and bad, and just deal with it. However, today is clear evidence that I'm not alone and I don't have to be, and that its all a matter of the mind. I've always told people that if you want something, then you have to want it enough and believe in it and it will be...sometimes its hard to down some of your own medicine huh? But now that I've had this talk and I've thought about it, I feel soo invincible and proud. It's not promised that I will be flawless but I'm going TO BE THE BEST THAT I CAN BE AND IT WILL SHOW.
THANK YOU SOO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT, YOUR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, AND YOUR FAITH IN ME....IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I CAN MOVE MOUNTAINS
I LOVE YOU
AND FINALLY TO MYSELF. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL,SMART, FUNNY, TALENTED,OUTGOING, CAPABLE, STRONG,A GREAT FRIEND, LOVABLE, HUGGABLE AND LOVED!!! YOU WERE BORN TO SING, TO ACT, TO PERFORM, TO MAKE PEOPLE LAUGH, TO LEAD, TO TEACH AND TO BE REMEMBERED. SO DON'T EVER SELL YOURSELF SHORT. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU WANT TO, ITS JUST A MATTER OF DOING IT AND WANTING IT ENOUGH TO FOLLOW THROUGH WITH IT. :) YOU WILL DO JUST FINE IN ANYTHING YOU DO! BELIEVE IN YOURSELF BECAUSE IT STARTS WITH YOU!
