Right now, I'm feeling like super low. I cant remember if ive ever felt this low before, but if i did, its been a long while. im not sure if i feel this way because theres just so much going on and only 1 of me with 24 hours in a day. whats stressing me is
school....
im taking 6 classes and out of all of them theres only only 2 that really require alot of studying, but the rest its like a music invasion. i feel like i have all these pieces to learn at least 8, and just not enough time to learn it. while the majority of the music is in english, and german and italian arent as hard as french but still. i feel like my head is going to explode. i feel like i have no time for my music...its just all opera and classical and arias and art songs. sorry dean and frank, you guys are going to have to take the back seat for awhile
work...
as it turns out, my job has found the cheapest way of stayin open without having soo many people there. every1 in my department is gettin 12 hour weeks. WTF?! are u serious? i got credit cards to pay, i got bills to pay, rent to pay...who can live on a barely 100$ check a week? so as of now im considering gettin a 2nd job bcuz i need the money, but if i take that 2nd job, where will that leave my time for school? and if i do get a 2nd job, wats going to happen with my health insurance????
working out...
so at the beginning of this year, i told myself i want to get into better shape and lose weight for myself. and so far so good, but now with school here, its so much more harder to find time to work out and do everything else i need to do. and on days where i dont get the chance to work out....i feel sooo bad. :( id hate to think that i wont be able to fully commit myself to my workouts and diet because i dont have the time to do this or that. ugh
and while family is family...theres always a problem. i just kinda wish things would lighten up a bit at home. i hate feeling like i did something wrong when i didnt, or that i should be quiet for sum odd reason when i have no reason to be silenced.
but i guess wat it all boils down to is, I NEED MORE TIME IN A DAY....ive felt this way before soo much ugh redunkulous....so idk what im going to do,but a change def has to start with me.....wish me luck...it may be awhile.
hopefully things get better
