Aye, soooo as many of you might know, I have a new cat, got her a week after my grandfather's cat pass ( R.I.P. Gato). It didnt take me very long to start loving her. A week into adopting her, she came down with what i call the "kennel flu", where she comes to a new home and just the new environment makes her a lil sicky. I kid you not, she was having probs breathing and sneezing all the time. I would take her in the bathroom with me while I took a steaming shower. At night i would keep her under the blankets with me, so she would share my heat and even wen she sneezed all over me, i was there to wipe her nose. I even go out of the city to get a special cat food that she likes. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER!!!! Tonight my mom noticed she had been licking 1 paw alot, i look and it looked like a booboo :( I haven't gotten her pet insurance yet cause I havent had the funding to do so, but I'm so worried. I washed her booboo and i could tell it hurt her, i hope she doesnt hate me now cause it might have hurt her. :( I just hope that what ever she has is curable and I can continue to love her for the next 10-15 years. Its funny because I think I finally have an idea of what a parent goes through.
As a parent, you have this child or infant who is new to everything. While they get use to this new world, they are learning 1 of the most important lessons of life and that is to trust. So here you have this baby who can't do anything for themselves so they have to trust that you will do everything for them to keep them healthy ( of course many would argue babies don't know that, but i believe deep down in their tiny hearts, they know). So because they are still babies, they can't really communicate with you...you have ideas on what they want and what you think they are saying to you...but you still don't know. The great thing about it all though, is day in and day out, they are there, waiting for you, there to see you every moment of the day...and regardless of how crappy your day went or even how crazy they make you....you can't help but smile when you see them. Then your baby gets older and here they are, making friends with mischief and getting into everything. As a loving parent the most common phrase they will hear you say ( outside of "I love you") is "NO!!!". At some point they understand no, but still do it anyway....just because. But what you don't realize until you feel it is YOU LOVE THEM! You love them soo much that when they are hurt or cry and they can't tell you why, you are amazingly miserable for the fact you can only do so much to help. You love them soo much that you would walk to the other side of the world on glass barefooted just to get them or help them. That they could both physically and emotionally hurt you, but you still cant stop loving them. Now I don't know if this is parental love, but IT IS TRUE LOVE.
This is dedicated to you my Lieben, because you make me laugh, because you look for me when I get home, because you wake me up just to feed you and because I know you love me and because I love you
This is also dedicated to my nephews ( Giovanni and Ivan) and my Aspira babies!
Monday, July 26, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Our Song: A Poem by Me
Our Song
Written by J.N.
In memory of El Mio
What was once our song, is now so long gone
Well not really, but the emotional pull is so strong, can you still feel me?
So now when I hear that B to A , that A to a G, that G to an Fb, that Fb to an E
I think this was me, this was you….this was us
Was it a gust of lust?
The domination of infatuation?
Or were we just so much into each other that we didn’t take the time to listen to what we should have heard?
Which was the sound in between our words
As I write, that solo plays in my mind’s ear
And how I wish to get it out of my head, its still there
BEEE, AY, GEE, F flat, AY E, EEE
And it keeps going…
It goes to the trills which give me electric chills
To imagine your fingers tips caressing me just as passionate as you touch you frets
I try to forget, and it’s hard because I can’t or maybe I just don’t want to
Fantasies and day dreams of us together seem to drift out of my reality as you rift into an inferno tonality
Slips right through the piano cracks and is erased off my manuscript
But I guess this is it,
This solo will always vamp your in key, which will always sound perfect to me
Because this was our song
Written by J.N.
In memory of El Mio
What was once our song, is now so long gone
Well not really, but the emotional pull is so strong, can you still feel me?
So now when I hear that B to A , that A to a G, that G to an Fb, that Fb to an E
I think this was me, this was you….this was us
Was it a gust of lust?
The domination of infatuation?
Or were we just so much into each other that we didn’t take the time to listen to what we should have heard?
Which was the sound in between our words
As I write, that solo plays in my mind’s ear
And how I wish to get it out of my head, its still there
BEEE, AY, GEE, F flat, AY E, EEE
And it keeps going…
It goes to the trills which give me electric chills
To imagine your fingers tips caressing me just as passionate as you touch you frets
I try to forget, and it’s hard because I can’t or maybe I just don’t want to
Fantasies and day dreams of us together seem to drift out of my reality as you rift into an inferno tonality
Slips right through the piano cracks and is erased off my manuscript
But I guess this is it,
This solo will always vamp your in key, which will always sound perfect to me
Because this was our song
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